Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Change

I am asked why do I choose to live on the edge of a knife,by the very one whom I love. what can I say? except that it is because like 'LIFE' LOVE happens to be a four letter word too.
I understand that Life is short and we always have to understand something or the other this time or then.

What if I fail? what if I lose in this? what if it leaves me hurt? all I can say is if it doesn't hurt the one I love I am more than happy.

A typical case of foolish statement like all boys and girls make you might add. And I will refrain from commenting or arguing on it. If someone can make me understand what love is I'll gladly
call them a master.

I am happy though on one account that it has been acknowledged if not accepted. As I miss your voice at 2:07 AM in the morning

I realize what would happen If I never hear you again?

For the first time I am feeling something I have never felt, happy and broken, and I don't want to get over it. I am listening to Pink Floyd's 'High Hopes' as I write this. The guitar that I hear makes me sad and I seem to lose all senses and feel like drifting into nothingness.

What is it that I want from you? I ask myself.

'Nothing' is the reply for I am not worthy enough, but if there is something I can change about myself to be somone you can love all you have to do is to say it.

I am so sleepy i dont know what i am writing here but the blog has to be updated. I'm going to hell for this but since this is a time I speak from the heart i have to say yes just tell me what and all should be rectified, any flaws that may exist in me.


posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 1:58 AM

1 Comments:

At 12:57 AM, Blogger Rajshekhar Murthy said...

U are going through that great mometnt. Dont worry. It will pass. You shall look down upon this moment someday. Try NOT to relate your worth with this feeling. we friends really know better. And yes. one more thing...your mind and body are seperate and at present have no control over each other. Any action /gesture u do, doesnt necessarily mean you mean't it or wanted to do it in the first place. Take care. Bye

 

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