I believe in miracles.
Dearest GOD,
For the first time I believe in miracles, I want to. All along I told people
that miracles will happen and most of the time they did.
If I have ever been of help to anyone, If I made a change in their life
then, make me be loved by those I love. I am taking my chances and
if this is my ticket to hell I'm the first in queue, I know I am not.
I will never see hell if I get this ticket for I know whatever you do is
for good.
This ain't a journey of self destruction as I always thought it is,
GOD, This is the only thing you can offer me and I'm requesting you
to consider my plea.
Thanking you in anticipation.
Ritesh Nair.
Karrox Technologies Ltd,
Maharashtra,
India,
Earth,
Solar System,
Milky way,
Universe,
GOD.
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Thought Randomization.
Often in life we all resolve differences of opinions amongst the people we call our's.
I have realized and hence ask people to consider a litle bit of what I am putting up in writing.
I learnt from Rajesh that there are three 'C's' of marketing.
Convince, Confuse, Con.
I have also understood that there are a few 'R's' which are a like guidelines to me.
Render : Paint your dreams on paper so that others may acknowledge.
Reduce : Reduce your stress to address solution search.
Reconsider : Before you get angry empathize (this is from a Rotarian).
Register : Acknowledge the co worker's mentality and work alongside.
Reject : The urge to erupt in rage.
Remind : Not otheres but yourself, document your work and schedule.
Restrain : Keep away from arguments.
I always have told people a small thing about troubleshooting.
1) Find the problem.
2) Isolate The problem.
3) Shoot the problem.
Now apply this to people you have a lot of trouble with.
1) Find the problem creator.(easiest step)
2) Isolate The problem creator.(Cut his links)
3) Shoot the problem.(Enter his brain)
What I have written is a standard method and an absolute method of deliveing scrap in
english, whilst I seem to miss this one girl, I seem to conjure up ways to keep my mind diverted, but so far all attempts have been unsuccessful.
I have to say if I ever had a choice to choose between my previous
(as in a few weeks ago) life and my current way of the same I'll still say with
all my heart that these 3 weeks have been the greatest days of my life.
I thank you for all the things you are putting me through.
All I want to know is will she ever love me, oh marriage is definitely
a long way off, but love?I don't know if she can understand the way
I think of love but then if she would I'll be a million times happier
than what I am. ( I am already the happiest man on the planet,
since it is only human to want more, please can I be a million times
more happy GOD?)
Oh and that is a question I'll ask GOD coz I know we don't share the
same thought I think. (I hope I think wrong).
Then again for all that matters at the end of the day before I close my eyes is that one line
from a great singer ' Bob Marley' 'Could you be loved'
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/b/bobmarleylyrics/couldyoubelovedlyrics.html
Hey nothing here is a question to you but if you think you wish to answer you are
welcome with the reddest of all carpets.
I never fight my feelings they are what they are and whatever happens they are
there, they'll never change, for I've never loved anyone the way I do now.
I know I'm crying for the moon thinking about you, I have known that nothing
else that I have known and seen except you matters to me much as of now nor will it ever.
I await a miracle.
Sometime, Somewhere
To love, like a forbidden fruit,
And caring a shade faded off,
On a dark Journey of chasms,
Of life,I undertook long ago
On earnest wings that I fly,
To catch your smile so far away,
Those 23 miles seem a pleasing walk,
wishing you let me start someday.
Beyond the skies, the stars play
A orchestration of all my happiness,
To make me long and understand,
Of life's folly and joyous ways.
Overlooking the crossroads of life,
I ponder on a thought to choose,
I know I'll love you forever,
I'll await when you could, someday.
Every moment.
I forgot to post this yesterday
I told someone that everytime I miss her I love her a little more.
And I missed her again. I know she has to sleep as well but, all I need is
10 minutes of her voice. Well I am growing selfish day by day i think.
I need to suffer like this for all the bad things I have done in life, and for
all the people I hurt from time to time.
Of Life and All We Know.
Lillies bloom on a joyous noon,far in the desert,
I must say it's queer for it is hot and dry,
Where have they found the courage, where water,
I wonder how they ever grew,
An honest mistake some might say,
When the lillies die and go away,
I shall not regret their blooming,
For they brought joy to my heart.
Somewhere where the winds are of snow,
Of gentle breeze and winter sun.
All that touch my life
Of Unseen lands, where I now roam,
Bitter and sweet the feelings I nurture,
Deep in my heart felt thoughts,
Of life and where it has brought me.
Shadows of the past,that glow,
Seldom but from time to time,
Of an obscure past, that haunt my memory,
I left them far behind, I've come a long way.
I relish the pain that made me strong,
I realize my journey has and shall be long,
I'll take the road that no one took,
I'll get there where I dream for.
For to dream in not a mortal's sin,
Of love, Life and thoughts that are within,
A mind as beautiful as of the one i know,
Of how I feel and how I grow.
A tree that shall fruit in the future,
I seek not that moment nor harbour such thoughts,
I know I have the right to love, whom I chose,
I have no right to influence thoughts.
Soon I may be gone, For good or the worst I'll never know
I would be somewhere, somewhere far from her,
I'll miss her, to love her all over again,
For she made me understand How much I can love.
Quite a wierd poem I think, but then I am not at all a good poet i accept.
Am I understood?
This is more of an offensive question to my friends, I am sorry about this.
I have to ask myself from time to time if all I do is justified, that means is it something I want to be doing. I have come to a conclusion that es I finally understand what I want in life.
Solutions are never perfect as they breed new problems, they have to be tested before they are deployed.
We have a classic case of people who think I am in a phase and I am happy that they think so, I hope if they are right about it they are there to catch me if I fall apart.
(Dikhta hoon par hoon nahi)
I am really annoyed by this Shalini character who's got no guts to identify herself, If she has the guts why doesn't she come face to face to ask me her questions? Is it it important that I tell her all I fee, If I am in love? If I am writing about a girl in particular?
I have realized there are two types of fools in the world:
1) Those are born fools.
2) Those who take the time to discuss how foolish the others are.
If I keep myself happy thinking I am in love, or If I really am in love Is it anyone's concern?
I don't understand why do people have to know everything?
Shalini there is one more thing, It is more of a dare I ask you to do,If you have the guts for it then why don't you call me up at thane center and ask me what I am writing and Whom I am writing about? Identify yourself or be ignored.
If I know you and you got a problem then let me know.
If I don't know you then please take a walk.
Oh then again I love people, don't I? let's just say If you think of me as someone loving a girl or Girls just for some stupid, narrow minded reason then get a life kid you got to grow up. Fun is Fun,Work is work and fun, Love is about being accountable and responsible.
If you did't like the answer you shouldn't have asked the question.
Do you understand what love is? Have you ever loved someone unconditionally, as in no strings attached? Has your love been acknowledged? Do you have a life?
Sorry about venting my anger there, but please restrain yourself from asking stupid questions, oh and Please go to hell.
Life and a Magical Moment.
The world is my stage,
I'm a comedian,
One who is made for a laugh,
People around are afraid.
To be an object to nature's folly,
To lose himself in the crowd,
To be the last one to walk
When it is dark and cold.
Like a lone heart he walks,
With tears in his eyes and the painted smile,
He knows what he has shall be forever gone,
He walks singing his own song.
This is not a poem but an abstract version of text that seems to be nonsense, but I hope
someone understands.
Change
I am asked why do I choose to live on the edge of a knife,by the very one whom I love. what can I say? except that it is because like 'LIFE' LOVE happens to be a four letter word too.
I understand that Life is short and we always have to understand something or the other this time or then.
What if I fail? what if I lose in this? what if it leaves me hurt? all I can say is if it doesn't hurt the one I love I am more than happy.
A typical case of foolish statement like all boys and girls make you might add. And I will refrain from commenting or arguing on it. If someone can make me understand what love is I'll gladly
call them a master.
I am happy though on one account that it has been acknowledged if not accepted. As I miss your voice at 2:07 AM in the morning
I realize what would happen If I never hear you again?
For the first time I am feeling something I have never felt, happy and broken, and I don't want to get over it. I am listening to Pink Floyd's 'High Hopes' as I write this. The guitar that I hear makes me sad and I seem to lose all senses and feel like drifting into nothingness.
What is it that I want from you? I ask myself.
'Nothing' is the reply for I am not worthy enough, but if there is something I can change about myself to be somone you can love all you have to do is to say it.
I am so sleepy i dont know what i am writing here but the blog has to be updated. I'm going to hell for this but since this is a time I speak from the heart i have to say yes just tell me what and all should be rectified, any flaws that may exist in me.
Absence Of voice
I miss the tender grass,
besides the rocks where the fog rules,
I long to see the birds fly,
over the valley I once knew,
I wish to see the mountains,
covered in green and yellow,
I wish to be there wandering,
amongst the windng roads.
To witness,
The first few droplets of rain,
Glittering in the morning sun,
Of dew drops shimmering in the winters.
I yearn to see again all that happiness,
That I feel when I am there,
amongst the hills I knew were once my abode,
I wish to touch the earth,
with my hands cold and soothing,
I wish to see the clouds in the cloud formations,
I long sometimes to play around,
the roads I knew where silence lived,
I wish to take a walk,
Down memory lane once again.
I see you every where,
hear all you say,
I could wish you were mine,
But I know I am nowhere,
So I wish to God,
to call and take me away,
For when I am with him,
I could see you all the time.
A letter
There are times when you feel happiness. Happiness is only relative I believe as time is.And i am cursed, as all those whom I love will never love me.That is fine and I accept the fact without a grudge.All I have to say to god is here below in the form of a letter:
To,
GOD
Creation, destruction,navigation Department.
Generator Operator Destroyer Inc.
Somewhere 000 001
Subject: Request for GOD's close company.
Respected GOD,
I am thankful to you for giving me all the people who are so much nicer and sweeter. I am also thankful that you made me a happy man on the 20 th and so much that you made me cry with the same. Since there is little time left for the happiness to become constant I am requesting if I can ask you a few things. I am being a little greedy I know but since you already know that I am asking you all this for the first time for myself. I am happy with all you made me, but you made me weak, sentimental, crazy and foolish. If I wasn't I wouldn't cry, feel sad, and feel happy either.
I request you the following :(Please let me know if any of this is not available.)
1. Take me with you as I am so happy with that one thing you gave me that I think I have nothing to live for anymore.
2. What is the purpose of my existance,is it to make people laugh? ( You made me, that is the best joke ever) I think the world has had enough so take me away with you.
3. You gave me foresight and wisdom and then took away my sense of distinguishing
between the right and the wrong. So kill me.
4. You gave me courage and made me a coward for I stand today wishing to die.
5. I have all (except one thing) so I believe you can say my purpose of
existance is solved. So kill me.
Thanking you
Ritesh Nair.
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