Beyond The Veil Of the Mist

When.

Empty roads, long and winding,
upon hills that shine in the moonlight,
I know the strength of Loneliness,
Endless,sad, but truthful.

As the moon hides,
Behind the cloud, to wink at me,
To lighten up, to console,
I fail to see, I fail to think.

Somewhere beyond those mountains
All those 23 miles, distant, unending.
To float endlessly, to wander,
My mind runs, away,but back yo you.

All around me the world slumbers,
This night, the stars,the moon,
The shooting stars, the universe,
I see your face, in every tear drop.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 9:59 PM 0 comments

Everybody hurts.

This is for those who are hurt by the ones they love even at the thought of getting hurt by them. This is one song that I love coz it's got sense and a slow tune to it.

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REM
Everybody hurts
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When the day is long
And the night,
the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough, of this life
Well hang on
Don't let yourself go'
cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone(Hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go(Hold on)
If you think you've had too much of this life
Well hang on'cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends

Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand
Oh, noDon't throw your hand
When you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you're not alone
If you're on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much of this life
To hang onWell,

everybody hurts
Sometimes,
everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
So, hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts

You are not alone
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When you are hurt by something remember that you are someone who is strong for it is only human to be hurt but is a better human to forgive. Give people an audience to clarify, maybe they didn't mean to.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 9:19 PM 0 comments

A stop in Time saves Eleven...

I was comming to office in my Chechi's scorpio and a small leaf all wilted flew through the window. I recollected you and thought how much more I have started to observe and how I feel, and how much I have started to feel. Sometimes I'm scared that I may just run away from myself to sit unders some shade in a far away place to meditate in thoughts of you.

Your absence seems to bring
A strange form of pain
Beautiful and willing lonliness
To lose all my hurt in thoughts of you.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 11:22 AM 0 comments

My life and My existence

There are times in our lives when we want to be alone, with our own self when we need to understand. We fight all that we feel and we try our best to convince ourselves what is not. I fought the feeling that I was in love, I lost, not because I am not good at fighting it, but because for once in life I wanted to love someone and that too endlessly without any bonds.

All my life ( this may sound like I have seen a lot in life already. trust me I have and I don’t or you can say can’t forget it) I tried to tell myself what I was not. I thought I was strong, I was not, I thought I am the best I know I am not, I thought I was all I could be, I realized I could be better, I wished for something and ‘POP’ there it was like magic. I could wish for the one I love and get it too but will it be justified. I would rather leave it at her discretion, if I am worthy of being loved. I give a damn if she does not, I give a damn if she even doesn’t take the time to think of it. Why? If you ask.. I’ll say I hate losing and I will never lose for I wished to love her, I do and will.

I also realized the fact that someone will never understand how it hurts me and how easily I can be hurt, even if I say bye, or I’ll talk to you later. It is like you are hanging for your life over a chasm by a rope of the bridge that broke and the rope hurts when you hang on to it, it skins off your hand but you hold on to it though the hand bleeds profusely, because you want to live, a moment longer, but the rope breaks and you fall, but you love the rope for it held you to your life a little longer, you don’t let go of it even when you hit the bottom of the chasm and die, for you loved the role the rope played and you had thanked god for it’s existence.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 10:24 PM 0 comments

Oh god...................

This was One hell of a Match the only competition was me killing myself.



Check this match Smita is really picking up. So is Raj. The only one who shot me 4 times was smita.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 5:32 PM 0 comments

Redemption:

The days that bring the clear clouds,
Of early rains on some june start,
Covering the stars, clouding the moon,
To make my vision darkness bound.

Of thoughtless deeds that I've done,
long ago when all was fun,
When time felt like a little furball,
Sometime ago, long.

I revisited each emotion,
Paid back in the same coins,
Ended up in love again,
Right back where I started from.


Will complete it later.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 11:44 PM 0 comments

All Apologies

A very sweet friend called smita reminded me that saying sorry is easy and giving a chance to people who want to say so is greater.I thank her. I trust that kid knows more of life than I do. Smart man, though not very well known for her smartness.

I always tell people that people who make you understand things by not doing it on purpose is the kind of people you should be around with. You learn.This reminds me of Alanis Morisette's song You Learn;
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I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone, yeah
I recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah
Swallow it down ( what a jagged little pill )
It feels so good ( swimming in your stomach )
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free

Throw it down ( the caution blocks you from the wind )
Hold it up ( to the rays )
You wait and see when the smoke clear

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out ( the way a three-year-old would do )
Melt it down ( you're gonna have to eventually anyway )
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn
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Well I learnt that I can still love my friends so much that I have now learnt that they give a shit about my dignity, My self respect, My life, My love for them, and most importantly ME.

Atleast the women I know at karrox who are my friends (Smita,Thereem,Taz,Corbi,Nisha) are unlike those women who give me a lot of pains. The reasons I hate the others .

Thank You GOD. I see the light, Thanks to the one who turned it out ....................

I have learnt something thanks a million to a very nice human being called Nisha, a second woman I am proud to call Chechi.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 6:34 PM 0 comments

Hope:

A bird out at my window sill,
sat when it was dark,
To fly away into the morning sun,
Her wings just to park.

The night so still,
Pitch black, frightful,
Scared the little one,
Sought refuge on my window sill.

I opened the drapes to look at her,
and hung there for hours,
she looked at me with sweet eyes,
I just noticed, still.

The wind that night was at chill,
She shivered, but stood still,
I opened the window pane to let her in,
She perched still where she was.

Awaiting the morning sun,
To retreat into her routine life,
I still keep the pane open,
maybe she'll come back if not soon.

If hope was to be sold in shops,
I would be its industry,
For the lord filled up,
A heartful of hopes in me.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 11:21 AM 0 comments

Beautiful Day

My God?

What have I done. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
The pain, The panvel, etc, etc.


Ok there is one silly thing that is bothering me. All this while for the past 2 months I've been trying to be Ritesh, not Ritesh Nair. When you put the entire name together it becomes dangerous, aggressive and strange.

Ritesh :
I am the one people have been seeing for the past 2 months. Most of me does not match with myself.

Ritesh Nair :
This is the bad guy. He keeps comming back every now and then.
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It has been a nice day so far and it will be. Well there are a few people at the corporate I love talking to my very sweet friend Smita, and my recently discovered Nisha Didi.

I used to tell people that life sucks, I 'll say I've been wrong. Smita you just inspired me and guess what I am back to writing better poems.
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I also discovered why dad's aren't allowed to wash babies
Because




Oh and the old light bulb joke in a new form :

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 10:06 AM 0 comments

A beautiful song That I love

One on One
Robert Miles.
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The sky isn't always blue
The sun doesn't always shine
It's alright to fall apart sometimes,
I am not always you And you are not always mine
It's alright to fall apart sometimes

(CHORUS:)
After all is said and done
One and one still is one
When we cry, when we laugh
I am half, you are half

The heart isn't always true
And I am not always fine
We all have an angry heart sometimes

(CHORUS)

Look how far we have come
One and one still is One
moon (one moon) One star (one star)
I love the one we are
One thread (one thread)
One line (one line)
Let's stand still in time
One moon (one moon) One star (one star)
I love the one we are One thread
(one thread) One line (one line)
That runs through our lives

(CHORUS)

Look how far we have come
One and one still is one ...
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posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 8:33 PM 0 comments

Sarcasm

The day brings to me a song,
of joy that I knew then,
when time was, when you were,
Now All that is left is me

Of my lonely existence, I question,
The one above who judges my ways,
I beg him to oversee all I do,
For it's human to err.

The smoke casts a shadow,
The lamp post where we used to meet,
You left long ago,
I await your return.

The nightfliers sing a symphony,
I am the conductor to them,
I watch the road, every passer by,
I know you wont arrive, I still wait.

My life has walked out on me,
I exist as a body that moves,
Meaningless and still existing,
I promised you I'll wait.

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 3:44 PM 0 comments

Some crap poem I tried

Please read the previous post that should be better for I poured every bit of what I feel into that poem titled Somewhere Somehow.


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Meaningless Existence
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On this lone winter night,
I feel your thoughts keep me warm,
Of gentle breeze in this unfriendly cold place
Of winter’s wind and it’s cold embrace

To touch every pore on my body,
To make me understand how I miss,
All that is now amiss
My life, my love and my past.

Somewhere distant you exist,
In your love’s arms keeping you warm
I exist knowing and feel the absence of you that brings pain
For maybe God forgot me somewhere down the line

I usher the lonely trees in the woods tonight,
My last night before I undertake a journey
To a land far away where I can watch over you
Forever, to catch you smile, smile with love

The gun in my hand gleams ,
Reflects the silver moon in its chrome,
I shall soon put this soul less existence to rest
My body, for it is tired existing

Living without you is a choice I had to make,
You made the choice and I acknowledged it,
I just wish to hear you once before I leave,
Before the lead bathes in my blood.

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Please give me a feed back on this if possible. Critisicm welcome

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 3:19 AM 0 comments

U an only you

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 2:32 AM 1 comments