Beyond The Veil Of the Mist

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posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 2:33 PM 0 comments

One of the few brilliant women I know sent me this.
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A little boy went into a drug store, reached for a  soda carton and pulled it over to the telephone. He  climbed onto the carton so that he could reach the buttons on the phone and proceeded to punch in seven  digits. The store owner listened to the following  conversation. The boy asked, "Lady, Can you give me the job of  cutting your lawn?" The woman replied, "I already have someone to cut my lawn." "Lady, I will cut your lawn for half the price of   the   person who cuts your lawn now." The woman responded that she was very satisfied with  the person who was presently cutting her lawn. The little boy found more perseverance and offered,   "Lady, I'll even sweep your curb and your sidewalk,   so  on Sunday you will have the prettiest lawn in all of
 North Palm Beach, Florida." Again the woman answered in the negative. With a   smile  on his face, the little boy replaced the receiver. The druggist, who was listening to all this, walked over to the boy and said, "Son... I like your  attitude; I like that positive spirit and would like   to offer you a job." The little boy replied, "No thanks: I was just  checking on the job I already have!"

Moral: BEST IS THE SELF APPRAISAL

 

Regards,
 Rashmi Jadhav

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 12:26 PM 1 comments

PhoeniX Unleashed

Pointless, absurd and absolute weird could be some words put together as an assorted bunch of sweets packed in some head shaped box i call my cranium so the ingenuity of god is what i really stand back and look at, absolute, hey i seem to be obsessed with that word... maybe the world revolves around the sun but hey looki here baby my world is mine for the taking, I am the king in it and I'm the pauper in delirium dreaming to be the PhoeniX..

Ah PhoeniX ; that is my favourite symbol, I know I am the PhoeniX the fire bird arising out of the ashes to fly again, this is me, and I am not one who cries for he is sad, not one who smiles for he is happy, I am my pretence, an undisturbed illusion or a concoction that time brewed to age to perfection, No I don't think I am a loser, or that I am a contraption of phenomenal idiocracy or maybe just a politically incorrect juvenile fool,…..

It takes me a long time to come to planet earth to try to understand people and it takes longer for them to fly into the clouds to comprehend what i say, not that I’m too interesting, in fact I am not in fact I seem like some mentally retarded junk pile to ordinary mortals, who think that I call myself all that in self pity, do I? Boss you guys may have been through pain, lived through it and suffered a million degrees beyond what I’ve been , but for me that single moment when I was in pain was when I thanked god for making me realize I am human, when I understood I had a heart, when i knew I could love, when I say I don't want to be loved or cared for it means that if someone wants to take a chance with me, they have to be some sort of a lunatic or just plain vanilla Mom, like my mom, for she know what I think, how I think and the limits of my understanding, she argues with me only one point where i lack, I hate cleaning my bed, it is littered with my CDROMS and my study material and my clothes, man that’s how I hide in my sleep from those demons within that mock at me in silence.

Do you know what Ritesh Nair is? Coz I ain’t got a clue……….. and If you know then think twice, coz you saw something i was for about 30 minutes…. the real me is not there, it is silent, shy and someone who is like a ticking time bomb who gets back at time, to fight and stare at it in the face and eye and call it a fool to have tried to change me. I wont change, I wont quit, I wont lose, I wont stop smoking, hey the only thing I will is sticking to the ‘wont’s’ and ‘will not’s’. step aside God you just met your match…….

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 11:45 AM 0 comments

My story shortened

There was a time when I could have looked at my world and believe all was well, I lived there and one day when I woke up I realized I was living a dream, as if like some logs adrift on a flooded river, flowing downstream towards a waterfall. The first thing I saw was me, heading down heads down, falling into a frenzy of my uncontrollable self, lost in chaos, feeling like killing myself…. I find a branch I reach out to hold on to it but then I feel afraid for these branches have often broken and made me fall harder all over again…..

It is fear that drives me not the urge to live, that is what I have believed, just too engrossed in that thirst to feel the adrenaline rush in my veins, well that’s what I am …. A psycho freak I think…. Indifferent, sadistic and an absolute idiot hey there it is ‘Absolut Idiot’ they will use my picture on it and then me become huge hit like the ‘Absolut Vodka’ Advertisement man.


Well blog here is the truth, I’ve lived in you for so long that I know you understand the things hidden in me, how it kills me each time I try to escape…. The last time was horrible, and this time when I think of loving I believe for sure that it will leave cold and dying again……………..

Well I think this answers the questions a lot of people are asking me! And I end up making it seem complex. For answers they can read the entire transcript on my site though I label it as filthy garbage, it is what has made me alter myself so damn much……. And so much that going back seems like a tiresome and painful walk. I don’t want to cross the same forest any more, it is filled with the ghouls of the past.. tracing me like a sniper, I can feel the laser pointer’s burn on my temple, I rather run as these ghosts and ghouls wont kill me they will render me helpless and make me wilt, I refuse to let me be loved and if they take it for my arrogance and ego then let me be alone, as Munni said a long time ago “Ritesh Nair you can be everyone’s best friend but not a boyfriend” and a boy friend is never as close as a best friend I agree , so I shall choose my destiny as that and be so…..

Adios Amigos…

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 3:13 AM 0 comments

a poem

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 9:30 PM 0 comments

The me eees in mself

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 4:04 PM 0 comments

I called my intellect

Well how correct an analysis can be is what i always wondered. I ran into someone who reminded me that I'm just too indifferent, and irresponsible… I guess that is 100 % correct. I really have to consult my intelligence, reach out through the wire i use to communicate to it and strangle it to kingdom come…. I am afraid, to love, to think that i can and to think i will be is really so so so so damn stupid of me…. well hey nothing new for this blade walker is it?

Well boss as Cobain would sing

“ I wish i was like you,
  easily amused,
  find my nest of salt,
 everything is my fault
 I’ll take all the blame,
aqua seafoam shame,
sunburn with freeze burn,
choking on the ashes of our enemy,
all in all is all we are”

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 1:02 PM 0 comments

Logos

Damn I win in Masterful levels as well............

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 10:47 AM 0 comments

shortest personality test

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth. While you may not be a total hippie... You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around. You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure. However, you do put some thought behind all your actions. Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

posted by Abinomable Non Nutcase @ 11:30 PM 0 comments